365 days

A year ago today, I was in Sydney,AUS. wandering the city, looking for somewhere to have dinner....there were so many options it took us about 2 hrs to finally settle on some Chinese joint....it was a good choice. Everyone was so excited. Our journey had begun. No one really knew what to expect, or what the next 3 months were gonna be like. This kept a smile on my face...for pretty much the whole trip. I dont think I've ever felt so happy, and not bored. Everyday was so different from the previous....even when it felt like it was semi routine, looking back now, it wasn't. For me, a girl who hadnt been traveling before, it was so amazing. I still cant believe the opportunity that got given to me by 4 boys from LA....throw in a jabrone from New York for the helluva it, and a videographer who brought an entire suitcase of costumes and a boombox, and you got EARTH TOUR /08.

Its weird how fast a yr went by.....but even weirder that at the same time it seems so far away.....I think the latter is because I've hated it here since I got back in June........tour ruined me. lol. just in the sense that now everything I thought was cool here, is so fucking stupid, and annoying, and boring as fuck. I guess it took me 43 countries to realize mine sucks. Too many pointless rules. Too many pointless humans, and routine. Fucking routine. I will leave here soon...this is not where i see myself growing. Its stagnent........and stale. 2 really bad things to be.

I could sit here all night and relay hilarious, ridiculous, heart wrenching, and amazing stories.....but you wouldnt really get them.....unless your name was dashy, butt, brutha, isen, gary lachangeee or jabrone.......thats just it. I dont really have anyone to member with....at least I got Rach, she's a great ear....and she is actually interested in the stories....that rules...cuz there's lots....thx fert.


So as I sit in my room.....freezing cuz my super cool neat roomate who is gone for a month (phillipines) (so awesome!) decided to turn off the heat.....oh and not tell me how to operate the heat.....and as silly as I tend to be at times, I know how to work a heating system...and this one doesnt.....he prolly had it turned off while he's gone......I mean HE isnt here, why would the apt need it????

ugh, anyways, thats a whole other blog.

bottom line is this, one year ago I was given a great gift.
a gift I wont lose.
a gift I cant forget.
a gift that cant be given twice.
a gift that cant be returned.
a gift that meant the world to me. literally.

thank you HORSE the band. from the bottom of my plopp jeans......thank you.
pshhhhhh.....the word thank you is no where near good enough....'i guess thats just tour.'

so im'a shutup.

i love
i miss
i wish.


EARTH TOUR /08
lest we forget.


ahhahahaahhahahhahahaaahahaha


This was taken by the stewardess that gave us free champagne to kick off the tour....we are fresh, shaven, nervous, excited, concerned, annoyed, sober, and semi-innocent...lol, i mean that in the 'we have no idea what to expect' sense.....this is right before take off from LAX to sydney........

Shameless Self Plug.

Well someones gotta do it......
shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Quite Good.

Things that are quite good

- today my 'beloved' roommate left for his month long trip to the Philippines..booya times a kajillion.
- did a photo shoot on Sunday with Edge......our best shoot yet.
- scored a rad lil dress from the thrift store yesterday....I'm wearing it now.
- my hair is cut.
- I'm drinking Earl Grey Tea & Bailey's
- Our one year birthday party for work on Sunday was epic
- Did I mention my roommate is gone for a month?

QUIIIIITE GOOOD.


this photo of me and my sisters back in the day is also quite good.
Not to mention my Dad's timing.....

Take on Me

Youtube is turning into pure shit. What ever happend to being able to express yourself VIA lipsync remake vids??? I mean really....they muted this video because of 'copyright' bullshit....however, they just decide this NOW after it being up for quite some time.
Its stupid. And I betcha if AHA saw this, they'd laugh and be like 'that was hilarious...but it'd be even funnier if there was fucking SOUND.' I'm posting it on here so it can be viewed for anyone who tried to watch it on youshit and couldnt hear anything.

down with youtube.
fags.

AHA Take on ME Lesync

dems were da days

October 27th 1987

When I grow up I'll get to date.
I'll get married. I'll have kids.
I get to stay up!
I'll get a spots (sports) car and I wont get bossed around!
I'll be able to invite people over.

December 2 1987

My best stories are when I was a baby because I didnt have to walk or worry abot anything.

Dec 11 1987

One day I saw a sippder ah ah ah I cryed. Sudinly a gust of wind blow me to the cartoon land. I loved it. I saw cartoon people. I saw mikey mouse. he was a cartoon of couse. it was so neat!!!! goofey gave me a gingbred house
I ate cartoon!

This is a Valentines Entry.

Love is suck.
why?
could it be because 98% percent of my friends who are in a relationship are either getting walked on, fucked over, having spells put on them, cheated on, abused, lied to, taken advantage of....im sure you get the point.
Im not even exagerating. The most frustrating part of all this BS, is that they are allowing it....and enabling it. They go running back the second the human piece of garbage claps they're hands....

How do they do it?
How do they want to be with someone that makes them feel like shit well over half the time?
How do they call that 'love'?

Someone recently said to me....'you're different. you view relationships different. you're stronger than us.'
as if that was some sort of an excuse for them to keep going back to a shitty human.

I dont hate men.
I'm not a lesbian.
I'm not a prude.

I'm just not wanting to get in a situation where i'm mindfucked, and I forget what the word love is supposed to feel like.

Fuck valentines day.
fuck buying your GF or BF a teddybear holding a gay heart that says 'i love you' no you dont. or else you wouldnt of done all that shit to them a week ago.....

pull up your socks ppl.

live for yourself.
the second you feel like maybe they arent the person you thought they were, leave.

be selfish.
its your turn.

xoxo


DO YOU???????????

And with no further Adu......

Technoviking.




many maaaany thx to Dash.

Looks like he really broke free.

No. like REALLLLLLLY broke free.
holy fucking shit.

this is amazing.

Sometimes I forget about dying.....Death in general. I forget that one day I'm gonna die. One day my sisters are gonna die. One day my best friend is gonna die. One day my cat is gonna die. (you get the point).
When you are reminded of this process, it jolts you back into a mindframe I wish I was more aware of....or do I?
I found out a new father and husband to be of my brother in law's sister, died. He didnt wake up. He wasnt sick. He wasnt drunk. He just didnt wake up. He has a 6 month old baby. And a beautiful fiance.
How is that life?
Its too fucked up.
It isnt fucking fair.
And I guess thats why it IS life.

My heart goes out to Kim and Sophie.
xo

An evening with Fireball...

Me n fireball.....we go waaaaaaaaay back....however do not take fireball for granted, or underestimate the way it can make you feel, should you choose to taunt fireball for a lengthy period of time.
I now understand this rule.
Im sorry fireball.
really.
Iam.

wilsss and mott threw aundy a bye bye party, since he's movin to Ontario to be a tattoo god.

I will miss you auuuuundy!

...and now.....the effects of fireball.




thinkin bout snox



this is my personal fave...
the front mullet.
the yellow shirt.
the spilt booze on yellow shirt, making you wonder if its urine.
and the 'bring it' pose.....for added fail.
luv.